Allow me a moment of carefree spinning in the winds of this change. I am excited. I am swishing my skirt perhaps higher than I should out of giddiness. Ignored possibilities have become cautiously embraced chances. Chances I'm taking.
Allow me a moment of terror. Changes loom so close, as they do for so many. I have to let myself cry about it a little. Not all the changes are welcome. They reside in bittersweet communion with the dewy newness. At the end of the day, I will smile about forward motion, but I must mourn the treasures left behind. Always in my heart. But far from my eyes.
Allow me a moment of indignation. Let me scoff a little at hypocrisy. If only you could pull yourself, even a bit, out of your own little world. Then you could see that I want good things for you. Out of love. It is an internal focus that blinds you from this - makes it all about you in far different ways. It's a big beautiful world. Open your eyes to the possibility that other people embrace it's beauty in many forms, even if you can't do so yourself right now. I'm trying to speak love. I guess things get lost in translation.
Allow me a moment of sappy thankfulness. Let me get a little bit teary-eyed out of sheer gratitude. I have been given incredible gifts of friendship. I am constantly overwhelmed by the magnitude of love that surrounds and changes me.
Allow me a moment of regret. I am sorry. I am so so sorry.
Allow me a moment of passion. I feel so much sometimes that I wonder how the world doesn't see my heart breaking and overflowing. A heart can break from happy love too. And maybe thats when things really begin.
Allow me a moment. With you. What I would give for one more moment with you.
I'm crossing off days but I am grasping at moments. Sliding through my fingers, pulling back into the tide. Continual, circular, forever amen.
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