Actions have consequences. Write it 100 times.

I will not allow myself to be used in this situation.I will not allow myself to be used in this situation.I will not allow myself to be used in this situation.I will not allow myself to be used in this situation.I will not allow myself to be used in this situation.I will not allow myself to be used in this situation.I will not allow myself to be used in this situation.I will not allow myself to be used in this situation.

I will not be torn apart to play the peacemaker. I will not be torn apart to play the peacemaker. I will not be torn apart to play the peacemaker. I will not be torn apart to play the peacemaker. I will not be torn apart to play the peacemaker. I will not be torn apart to play the peacemaker. I will not be torn apart to play the peacemaker. I will not be torn apart to play the peacemaker.

I will not settle for less so that you can continue to have unrealistic expectations.I will not settle for less so that you can continue to have unrealistic expectations.I will not settle for less so that you can continue to have unrealistic expectations.I will not settle for less so that you can continue to have unrealistic expectations.I will not settle for less so that you can continue to have unrealistic expectations.I will not settle for less so that you can continue to have unrealistic expectations.

I will be a friend by teaching you that actions have consequences, that words do matter, that choices lead to outcomes. I'm sorry if you have to hurt a little, but know I"m doing it so you avoid more hurt in the future. Because people are not going to allow this kind of behavior, and they aren't always going to respond in love. I accept that I have allowed you to act unhealthily and therefore have to deal with this mess now. But I'm done making allowances for unacceptable behavior. If the last thing I do in our friendship will help you have better relationships, to function more smoothly in the world we live in, if I lose our friendship because of that...know I'm doing it out of love.

I shouldn't be so whiny. Sorry. It's so easy to get overwhelmed and so hard to handle things gracefully. It's a journey, this growing up, and I too often want to throw in the towel.

And yet, I am reminded of beauty, and love, and excitement, and anticipation.

It's all going to be ok. We're all going to be ok.

cuz today was already awesome...

My day just went from being pretty terrible to downright horrible. I can't handle all this right now - I am feeling attacked from every angle, and like I don't have anybody on my side.

I believe a straw really can break a camel's back. And an anvil was just dropped on me, when I was already overly weighed down.

I need a break from this. I need somebody to help me...I'm tired of feeling like nobody even notices that I might need a shoulder to lean on. I'm tired of being the strong one, or the planner, or the one who has her shit together. I don't, ok? You're continually saying that doesn't make it true, it just puts more pressure on me. I'm tired of you laughing and saying that I take care of everything, because it literally kills me when I can't. And I think it just voids you of responsibility in anything.

Oh, the collective you. As I rant at the world. As I rant at myself. As I rant at life.

Oh, to be home again. To feel at home again.

They say that home is where the heart is

I guess I haven't found my home

And we keep driving 'round in circles

Afraid to call this place our own.

And are we there yet?

They say there's linings made of silver

Folded inside each raining cloud

Well, we need someone to deliver

Our silver lining now

And are we there yet?

And are we there yet?

And are we there yet, home, home, home?

They say you're really not somebody

Until somebody else loves you

Well, I am waiting to make somebody, somebody..soon

And are we there yet?

And are we there yet?

And are we there yet, home, home, home?

And it won't be too much

Cuz this is too much

Cuz this is too much for me to hold

This is too much for me to hold

And are we there yet?

And are we there yet?

And are we there yet, home, home, home?