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Deceptive memories leave me mesmerized

Flip through pictures to keep me energized

Nightmares of a life gone satirized

There must be more I cannot see

I understand the words goodbye

I never thought you didn't try

I'd lie and say that I had lied

If you and I could just be we

Tossing, turning, always yearning

I want a life I cannot see

Wishing, wanting, you're still haunting

I hear your voice and cannot breathe

Past words come back to stab the heart

The words that tore our love apart

I threw my caution like a dart

And now, resigned, must pay the fee

I never guessed, at stories end

The passion would only kill the friend

And so I desperately pretend

My actions were to set you free

Perching, lurching, still I'm searching

Trailing touches I can't forget

Crying, sighing, if only trying

Would take back things I now regret

Perhaps I must grow very thin

To bring me back to re-begin

But starting over seems a sin

Without you right beside me.